she instilled belief and hope within me, amongst my severe self doubt of where I stood and what I wanted to achieve. She continuously helped me reframe my past, and the cards I had been dealt, in a way that helped me better understand. She acknowledged it, which I often found unfathomable to do on my own, as well as the role it played in my present moments but inspired the courage in me to not let it keep dictating my future. It gave me the strength to take back the power and control that was often misused by others. The strength I knew was always there though so deeply clouded by my self loathe and riddled by shame, guilt and an undying fear of judgement surrounding my usage and SA I suffered through as a child